How far is the East from the West?

Hey ppl.. I know I have not update for a long long time.. so many things I wanna share but just dunno where to start.. @_@ basically had one of the most crazy weeks in the whole year.. gonna share more on that on the next post..

What got me to update my blog today is I just felt I need to share some stuff.. a lot of things have been going through my mind.. and one of it is that I realize that some of my old nasty dirty habits have slowly surface again.. and there is definite need to control it again..

This song just came to my mind just nw while fetching jon and alex home.. east to west.. especially in the 1^st line of the chorus :

Jesus can you show me just how far the east is from the west,

I cant bear to see the man I’ve been rising up in me again..

Seriously, I cant bear to see myself becoming like last time again.. sometimes it seems so hard, so sien, so troublesome.. easy to be evil bt hard to be holy.. years to be a saint bt a day to be a devil..

Its just like cleaning ur house, but dirt accumulates again, cleaning ur car, but gets dirty again, washing ur clothes, but after wearing dirty again.. well its troublesome but u cant say no need to wash clothes? No need to clean ur house rite? In the end you’ll still have to do it cause that is what that keeps u clean and protects u from bacteria..

Same as life.. I thank God for dying for my sins once and for all.. but it is still an endless effort to grow, improve myself.. with god I can do anything!!! Anyway hope this song reminds u of the need to constantly check on urself and to realize that it is only through god that we can change to be more like Him..

Here I am Lord and I'm drowning 

In your sea of forgetfulness 

The chains of yesterday surround me 

I yearn for peace and rest 

I don't want to end up where you found me 

And it echoes in my mind 

Keeps me awake tonight 

I know you've cast my sins as far 

As the East is from the West 

And I stand before you now 

As though I've never sinned but today 

I feel like I'm just one mistake away 

From you leaving me this way 

Jesus can you show me 

Just how far the East is from the West 

Cause I can't bear to see the man I've been 

Come rising up in me again 

In the arms of your mercy I find rest 

Cause you know just how far the East is from the West 

From one scar[r]ed hand to the other 

I start the day the war begins 

Endless reminding of my sin 

Time and time again 

Your [T]ruth is drowned out by the storm I'm in 

Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away 

From you leaving me this way 

Jesus can you show me 

Just how far the East is from the West 

Cause I can't bear to see the man I've been 

Come rising up in me again 

In the arms of your mercy I find rest 

Cause you know just how far the East is from the West 

From one scar[r]ed hand to the other 

I know you've washed me white 

Turned my darkness into light 

I need your peace to get me through 

To get me through this night 

I can't live by what I feel 

But by the truth your word reveals 

I'm not holding on to you 

But your holding on to me 

Your holding on to me 

Jesus, you know just how far 

The East is from the West 

I don't have to see the man I've been 

Come rising up in me again 

In the arms of your mercy I find rest 

(The arms of your mercy I find rest) 

Cause you know just how far the East is from the West 

From one scar[r]ed hand to the other(x2) 

(Just how far, the East is from the West) (x3) 

From one scarred hand to the other